Settling down with Z (19)

Nov 15

Father, today when I was meditating, I had a positive tot on Z. Instead of lamenting that he seldom call me, I tot that he couldn't call me because he is afraid of falling for me. At times, he has tons of questions to ask me but he hold back and wait for my call. If he isn't afraid, he can call me.
Anyway, for once, I will let go and let God.

On RA, I guess the trigger is timely as it reaffirm that I should not go for new job. Just relax.
(Dec 18 - RA is about relaxing resistance. I was resistant to change. Now I go with the flow)

Today got Six of Hearts, just settling down with him. Let go and Let God.

Afternoon
Now at airport, waiting for my flight. I was bit blur, didn't realise that I don't have to take the train. Anyway, got back and now having coffee and muffin at Harrods and I am settled. The coffee is good and the muffin has butter, albeit over-bake and I ate the middle portion only.

Told Z about it by msg. Let's face it, he is part of my life now. Just go with the flow. Since I got to know that there are about 10 persons on his BB's messenger and he said he read it last, I no longer take it personally when he didn't reply. For me, he is the only one.

What he has done, is to enable me not to take things personally. He is not doing anything to me.

Just now receive a call from V, on helping her with HR consultancy. She said she is now a mother of three and is unable to cope. So, she wants a freelance to help and tot of me. I said I am game and meeting can be arranged on Friday. Mmm, another avenue of income. If this grows big, I can quit from day to day job. Give consultancy and also writing, promoting IEO and volunteering for Isha.

Suddenly tot that I should be going for 3 days work. I have been a consultant throughout my career. And the work I am doing now can be delegated to my Finance Mgr. If she is willing to pick up, I will promote her to Snr Finance Mgr. She needs to handles Budgeting. She needs to liaise with the Team directly.

Tot I can expand my role with V to include operation consultancy. And I should be calling my cousin as I am a good CEO coach.

(Dec 18 - Yea, I be coach to E)