Nov 8
Father, the practice was fine but I was asleep at the end. The hata was great as if I was having orgasm.

Father, just received msg reply from Z and I can feel my anger rising. I didn't realise that there is so much anger in me. Recently I have been getting upset at things which normally wouldn't trigger me.

Firstly, the sadness came out and now anger. I tot I had no problem with anger but looks like it is not so.

When I was doing my meditation, I saw that the darker brown suit the cabinet well and will fit with my new wall paint and its gold specks will brighten up the room.

SN in Scorpio
What these people really want is money. They want to accumulate financial resources and material possessions to gain a sense of comfort and stability so they can begin to "really live"

Soul
True. That's why I hold back on renovation and furnishing eventhough I appreciate beauty and enjoy comforts.
Anyway, I decided that if others can enjoy, so can I. Like Z said money is not mine, until I spend it.

SN in Scorpio
Releasing attachment
As long as SN focus on material needs, their needs seem endless. The irony is that when they stop feeding the inner mechanism that urges them to possess, they begin releasing what they own and feel better.
A new energy enters their lives. The peace and contentment they seek come in a new and unexpected way; a spiritual way.

In this lifetime they are scheduled to give up trying to fill the emptiness inside through material things and instead pursue pathways that will lead to fulfillment of their spiritual needs. Acknowledging the intangible, spiritual part of themselves will bring them a sense of self-worth.

Any step they take in the direction of gaining insight - by keeping a journal, undergoing psychotheraphy or learning self-mastery through taking risks and having transformational experiences - will reap immediate rewards.

Soul
Exactly my Cosmic Lesson and Neptune card in 7thunder.

SN in Scorpio
Money issue
The secret to accumulation is proper distribution. If they want to be wealthy, these folks must learn to be stewards of money rather than hoarders of money.

They think the key to having money is holding on to it, whereas in fact the opposite is true. Money loves to circulate and is attracted to people who will keep it in motion. If they don't allow money to flow to others through them, only a certain amount can come back to them because they are not clear channel.

These folks often have a difficulty of letting go of anything - and money most of all!

Gratitude for what they have releases anxiety so they no longer block the flow of money and material things. If they let money and possessions pass through them in love, more will always be there.

Soul
Yeap, I definitely got issue with money. I am a hoarder. I now begin to live.

Received msg from Z in response to my profile; "When ur mind is clear, joy comes effortlessly"

When is no $$$$$ commitment, joy comes effortlessly ..!
And also with no commitment , stored gd fund ..mind become clear..and stress free..!

My reply to him
For me, I got money but I am stressed when I see the funds goes down. The tot of spending 20k is unsettling me. So, thanks for reminder that I have no reason at all to feel stressed.
When I saw the msg, I now understood he is my mirror. I am afraid to spend because I need more. He is worried if he doesn't spend. We are both end. I guess for me, the security is the accumulation of money. For him, is the accumulation of assets.

Shortly, I was viewing a 2 min youtube of IEO and I msg him:
Just watched Sadhguru dvd, joy comes not because of external, but because of ur internal chemistry :)

And now humbly I realised that we are at different phase. He is on surviving mode, me at spiritual mode.

Actually he has money, but is spending beyond his means and I have money but is spending below my means.


Nov 8 Eve
I am all packed. Looking forward tomorrow. It has been one month since we last meet. Boss asked me if I am going to exotic place. I said no exotic place, just going with exotic man. She laughed and said its the company that count. She asked me to enjoy myself and not to think or worry about future. Great advice.