To go for the Light, needs courage to overcome our fear

Sept 1 evening
Went for dinner. Came back into my car and the love song was playing. That's the one V selected for us. I listened and then let it be, its past.

Osho
Always remember, every individual has his own space. The slower u go, the more established u become, the more centered u become.
Seven years is not a long time as far as seeing me without prejudice. Earlier there were no trust, no love, but only curiosity. Now ur heartbeat are in harmony with me.  The recognition of my presence will soon become a realisation of ur own presence.

Soul
It took me five years to finally see Sadhguru with love. To finally accept him as my Guru. All the years while others are devoted to him; I only devote myself to the practices, using his tools.

Osho - razor edge
Why realisation happens only to a few out of millions of people? What happened to the millions? They never gathered courage to disappear in the soil. They remained protective of themselves. The protection become their death.

Soul
Whenever I asked them if they want to progress, they will say wait for Sadhguru. If Sadhguru wants it to happen, it will happen. This sounds similar to those who use InsyaAllah indiscriminately.
Don't they know the process is two way. Firstly they must want it and then it can happen. Our process is our own.
For me, internal I wanted it but I was resistant on the mode and timing but I m clear on my Self mastery path and will cross whatever challenges required.

Osho - razor edge
The one who dared to die in the earth began a new life, started rising upwards against gravitation, started transforming the earth into foliage, into the beautiful colours of the flowers, into great fragrance.
But the first step was the most difficult - to drop ur defences.


Soul
I was scared to death of starting the relationship knowing the negative outcome even then. But I knew its something I have to go through. No doubt the last few months I was sad but it was not suffering death as my fear imagined it to be. And there are gains too, I m freed physically and opened up my blog and created new website; realisation of psychological vs existential; swimming with breaststroke, swimming with enjoyment, ending Seven of Hearts, managing Seven of Clubs and many more.

Yes, there were many dark nights but the light days are much brighter because of the dark nights. Amen.

At times I still miss him but I know he is gone. I just said that I want to meet my partner; the spectacular partner that I had to grow up so much before I am ready for the meet.

Osho - razor edge
U are not what u appear to be. U are much more, intensely much more. U have to be provoked, challenged, to find that "much more" within u.

Soul
And experiencing Arda Siddharna and Stillness was something out of the world. Never imagine that it can ever happen to me. I tot only happens to those serious yogi or swami.

Osho - razor edge
To have meditativeness u will have to drop ur whole mind, ur whole thinking process.
To be blissful u will have to drop ur old habits of being miserable. They are deeply ingrained in u, because u have been miserable for so long that u have started taking the misery for granted - that this is how life is.

Soul
Yea, my auto negative tots on relationship is so ingrained that it continuously setting out bad expectation. Well, no more. I will love again and it be good love.