Apr 17
Father, why am I normally sad after IE initiation. Since I am sad, I don't want to be sadder still with having to eat the organic food.
Most time I had craving for duck rice and now I order goose rice. Basically craving for meat.
I guess I would have stayed if Z is around. Mmm, I am also not sure, but most likely.
Today initiation is ok. I seem to have lost interest on IE. Aiyoh, everyone seems to expect that I have done Isha Kriya, which I didn't plan to do. I know they expect me to stay for lunch but m just too sad to eat the organic food.
Evenin
Amazing. Here I was deliberating if I should call him. I tot if I called him and he is not there and I would trigger my abandonment mode. Then I decided that I am fine, even if abandonment mode is triggered. I can't let it rule my life anymore.
We chat about an hour. He is focused on giving me reason to continue our affair. Like I tot, he is into me and it would be me who run away, not him. He said he felt so energised after spending time with me. He tot it was the act. Actually, it was my energy flowing into him as mine was at a much higher level. And we were hugging close for 1st half morning. That's why I found myself lethargic after I spend the night with him. Then he said we must meet more frequently so I can give energy to him. He was specific and wanted a date for our next meet up. This time its him that asked for it and he wanted to keep his schedule free so we can spend time longer. And here I tot how will we progress everytime after our meet up. Looks like things will progress on its own.
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