Cosmic Reward (43) - Breakthru in viewing Z and I

May 9

Father, yesterday Z and I had a good conversation. We talked about meditation. He always managed to get us back to the target, our relationship. He is focused on us.
(May 27 - today he said that my favourite topic is Isha, whereas his favourite topic is us.)

For now, instead of comparing our rship with others. Let's just enjoy each other and we have more going, we r both physically and mentally compatible. And we are open with our sharing. And its true we both contemplated ending. But other don't and it ends anyway. At least we r realistic and prepare for it.

As for me going all the way. I already decided to do so during Samurai Game and that's when I tot we only had 'physical' rship and now we have both physical and mental rship, which is a big improvement.

So, I will stay put in my decision. Mmm, suddenly I had a different perspective. Instead of focusing on the ending and lamenting on what we don't have. I focused on the now and appreciating what we have. We r openly communicating our feelings in terms of our behaviour, our tots, our plans, our dreams, our sexuality.

Suddenly recalled Z's look of disappointment when I told him of our ending. Z asked that I have even predicted our ending. Something there, but m not sure.

Seven of Diamond
This is a spiritual money card (Value)
We r given an opportunity to experience the real prosperity that comes with an attitude of gratitude.
Whether it is about money, plans to make money or make love, situations will present themselves that test our faith in the abundance of the universe. By realising and then releasing our fears, we can transform our attachment into total fearlessness and personal freedom.

Soul
Yea, not sure how or why. But maybe becos of yday self creation meditation, instead of lamenting what Z and I don't have compared with others and stop looking at future, I finally feel blessed about our rship. Z and I are compatible mentally and physically which its what loads of people want. True, they may have started on emotion, but that's fickle cos in then still have to substantiate with mental and physical compatibility.