Cosmic Reward (16) - Courage to ask

Mar 30 Eve

Father, waited for his call. But none. Anyway, had tots come in but I remember my Osho, "Trust".

I start to wonder why he didn't call. A tot came, "he can't call because he cannot afford to pay and he doesn't want me to pay".
With that tot, I called him but no reply. Anyway, have msg him; Aiyah! U r really not available :)

Suddenly I found myself singing.

This evening, I had a great time driving back. The trees were so colourful and beautiful that it brought tears into my eyes. I was crying in awe of Ur power. I am also crying because I am so thankful that I am able to see such beauty.
New word; psychedelic - colourful.

We chatted a bit. I was upfront and asked about his finance and why he didn't save up. He said he did save up and told me about the biz deal he had and that he had to plough out his total saving.
He said to wait for his call as he doesn't want me to pay further, he cannot take it anymore.
Father, he is a good man. Also traditional.

Father, thanks for ur guidance. I am grateful for giving me the Trust card. I just jump.

I was telling him an incident about a gal asking for evidence of my age. He asked if the gal asked for evidence of my boyfriend. I asked him why he has to linked everything to us. He said I was running away again and he has to bring me back.

(May 19 - he is the one who keep us together)