Cosmic Reward (51) - Z is perfect for me now!

May 22 Eve

Father, maybe its true what P said about me needing to fulfill social stigma on having a partner.
Aiyah, never mind lah. Don't have to deliberate, its just the mind working overtime.
Actually if I ignore the mind, the tots lessen and journal become less.

What is marriage?
Two people who stayed together to create a family. Children is need to maintain the fun in rship, to provide the link to stay in a small community. To be part of social link.

Evening
Tot of calling him. But then the realisation that he doesn't need me to do so keep me away. I was thinking why prolong it by giving it so much communication. I should keep it simple.
Yea, I am running away, m switching off.

Aiyah, I only know one thing, at this moment he is perfect for me. If I don't think of future, we r good and I need not worry. If I don't think of past, I am not afraid.

So, what if he thinks I like him more, what if he thinks I cannot control myself. I already lost it that day with him. What is there not to lose?

Suddenly a tot occur. Instead of being sad that he predict my leaving. I should be happy cos that's means I love myself too much to be in just a physical rship. Since everyone predict I can leave him as I won't be satisfy with a no commitment rship ...and my card for next year also said so and Z card also said so. Just enjoy it for now, and need not worry about future.

Anyway, just called him but voice mail. He is probably asleep by now.

I am feeling bit positive. It was quite effortless for us to begin. And who knows it may be effortless for us to end. So, my mantra that "My love life is effortless" still stands as I am living it.

The Science of Mind - Ernest Holmes
Let us realise this with perfect faith: That as high as we shall make our mark in Mind and Spirit, so high shall be Its outward manifestation in our material world.

Soul
I will just participate as mySelf with Z and let the outcome be.


The Science of Mind
Love points the way and Law makes the way possible.

Soul
If Z hasn't been putting stop to us, I would have bull dozed. On the other hand, if he hasn't been patient, we would never have started.