Cosmic Reward (37) - I am more than fine

May 4 Eve

Father, he called me in the afternoon. I return call but no response. I then msg him but no response and I was completely fine.
I called him at night, 9.15 pm but he didn't pick up. Its now 10.45 pm still no response. The old me who have been dramatising. Actually the mind did gave a second tot on cancellation of tomorrow plan but I dismissed it. Z is responsible and he would called if is cancel.
Now I just view him as unreachable. I noticed that when he is with me, he put the phone on silent. When he goes for sathsang, he put phone on silent and left it in the car. So, his normal mode is silent.

Osho
Change ur inner being. And the moment u r changed, completely transformed, u will suddenly see u are out of the imprisonment, u r no longer a slave. U were a slave because of ur chaos.

Soul
Yeap. These days whenever I watch tv listlessly, I automatically start conscious breathing and eye staring straight at the TV, sitting without movement.

Osho
Meditation is not a conditioning; it is simply sitting silently, doing nothing, just enjoying the silence - the silence of the night, the silence of the early morning ... and slowly, slowly u become acquainted with the silence that pervades ur inner being. Then the moment u close ur eyes, u fall into the pool of a silent lake, which is fathomless. And out of that silence u r rejuvenated every moment.
Out of that silence comes ur love, ur beauty, a special depth to ur eyes; a special aura to ur being, a strength to ur individuality and a self-respect.

Soul
I am experiencing them.

Mmm, I think he has an unexpected trip outstation.
(May 27 - I was right. He does have a trip but he didn't want to cancel our date. We met very late at night)