To love is to die

Apr 20 Aft
Yea, I am disappointed. I was looking forward to our rendevouz.

Osho
Lovers die into each other. And only those who are ready to die into each other become lovers. Others are only playing the game. Love always brings death in. Love is a door to death and death is a door for love.

When u go into deep meditation, u too die.

Soul
True. I was not willing to lose myself and hence I cannot love. As for meditation, I was also frightened in the beginning.

Osho
Existence lives through death, existence renews itself through death. Life is only a pilgrimage towards death.

People don't live - they can't live, they r so frightened of death.

Soul
If u r afraid to lose, u can't play in life.

Osho
If love reminds u of death, then u r on the right track. If ur love is possible only by denying death, then ur love is false.

(May 24 - love does reminds me of services, of sacrifice, of death)


Apr 20 Eve
We r both thinkers, so are rational and hence going forward is slow.
But then because we r thinkers, we are also slow to react and hence we both stay put.

Now going to sleep. Tot of Z. I m glad we met yesterday. While I was disappointed we couldn't meet up, I am happy alone too. Its been awhile since I did my writing. He didn't call me back, but somehow I am fine. I knew his schedule must be tight and he is tired. What I know of him is honesty.