Growth needs courage to lose, to fail

Apr 21
Father, feeling bit sleepy these few days. Yday worked till 8 plus. It has been a long time since I worked late.

Osho
Love as much as u can, then u will understand what love is. By thinking about love, u will not understand - about and about, u will go round and round.
When u understand love, u become one with it.

Salvation is here and now. Salvation is not through renunciation, salvation is not through virtue, salvation is not through doing good to people. Salvation is through experiencing life as deeply as intensely, as passionately as possible. Virtue arises out of that passionate living. Good happens to people - it happens naturally without any effort on ur part.

Soul
Yday when I read my Top 5 back in 2009, I wrote clear description of my partner. I am glad to say that with regards to intimacy, Z fulfilled it. He is patient with me, encourage me to play and yet always on the lookout to ensure m comfortable. Father, I will stay with him. Not sure if we r going anywhere but we r both just going with the flow.

Osho
The good person is one whom good follows just like his shadow. He does not intend to do it, he has no intention to serve anybody, but his life becomes a service. It comes effortlessly.

Soul
Tot of me. Don't want to be sathsang guide, but m one. Don't want to be a volunteer, but m one.

Osho
Experience as much as u can, experience all that is available, don't be afraid and shy. Don't be afraid of anything. Whenever u feel something intriguing, creates curiosity in u, go into it. Don't be afraid of committing error, don't be a coward - because only those people grow who are ready to commit as many errors as needed. Growth comes through many errors.

Soul
This msg is for me with Z. Just go with the flow.

Osho
Don't be a victim of fantasies. Spirituality is not a sensational experience - it is maturity, it is let-go, it is becoming desire-less. Nothing is really experienced. Spirituality is the disappearance of all appearances. U r left alone and there is no object in ur consciousness.

Desirelessness is satisfied desire. When desires disappear, there is contentment. And desires cannot disappear unless u have made love to God.

Accept the truth and recognise the master. Truth abides in ur inner silence. Let tots disappear. And when u start experiencing a little bit of truth inside u, only then will u be able to recognise the master in u.


Apr 21 Eve
Mmm, do miss him a bit. But m fine. Just ate the pill. I recalled the drama I made during the initial stage.
I m tired. I just want to rest. So, in a way m glad we gave it a miss this week.

Osho
Anger arises in man's heart if his heart is not balanced. If the same heart becomes balanced, the energy which begins as anger starts transforming into compassion. Compassion is the transformation of anger.
If a child is born without anger, then it is certain that compassion will never appear in the life of that child. Just like if there is no possibility of love without hate.
Compassion is not the destruction of anger, it is the anger that has become tuned and musical.