Cosmic Reward (19) - positive view

Apr 1

Father, all the trees and plants are so beautiful. It is awesome. Their aliveness and colour make me in awe.
Today I will be going to check my eyes as I want to do lassik. Coincidentally they now have a center in Bangsar which is even more convenient.

Father, the office environment is getting interesting. Alas we have someone with business sense joining us. When I last spoke to E, I realised that I wanted out cos I gave up on office as there is no peer at my business level. I know with the existing team, nothing will happen and I resigned myself to the fact. When I have accepted the faith of stagnancy in the Company, we got a new lease of life, both in a new headcount and possible new location.

Father, Z is ESTJ and E is ENTP. My best match is with ENTP and second match is ESTJ. I know I am more compatible with E as we are able to discuss on intellectual issues. But for growth, I know I need someone like Z to led me out of my comfort zone. Anyway, the game with Z has already started. Whereas none for E. So, no dilemma there.

Father, do I really like Z? I never explored cos he said we were just sex buddies. But the more I know him, he is not the type to have sex buddies, that's why he has had a few live-in lovers. He is into relationship rather than just sex as he is afraid of physical disease, rather than morality issue.

Anyway, the more I know him, I knew I found a good man. As for his lack of courtesy, it has helped to make me do away with my abandonment/rejection issue. Amen.

So, I would say Z is a challenge vs E. So Z is right for me now. Also, with Z, I can freely do my meditation and that is a big bonus.