Cosmic Lesson (55) - To complete the course

May 7


Father, emotion is an outcome to me. When I am mentally and physically comfortable with my partner and he gave me a feeling of protectiveness, naturally I wanted to spend time with him and feelings developed.

He said we should not spend time together so feeling cannot develop. Let's not kid myself. I am already falling for him. And I am fine cos I know feeling is an outcome. I am not the type to fall in love at first sight. I am a intuitive thinker and I don't operate by feeling. So, not possible for love at first sight.

For him he is a sensation thinker and hence he operates by sensation. While he knows we r compatible and he cares for me but to him I don't create the sensation in him, no love at first sight. So, I am not the one he wants. Whereas he is the one I want. I also knows that he is so rigid that he won't change. That's his strength in him and that's also his weakness.

So, will need to end this by end June. I want and deserved to be loved. I don't want to hold back my emotion when I finally able to feel it. Z has helped to release my physical and now I want someone I am mentally compatible that I can release/express both physical and emotion. I am lovable and I deserved to be loved. No worries Z was just the door opener.

Yea, I finally realised I am loved. Z has helped to remove my past karma. Its true I could stay on till we finally complete our deal.
That's an option but it will be a compromise.
And I know it can be another 5 or 6 session, 2 to 3 months before it can happen and by then I would have fallen for him.

Just finished practice. Message came, finished the course. And finishing it means till I am enjoying the whole deal. I need his help to breakthru the physical part of me. The price to pay is falling for him. I just checked destiny card. I will end it next year, no worries. But it will end because I want more and not because I am afraid that I be abandon.

He and I have different perspective in love. For me, I don't need another to mirror my emotion. Whereas for him, he needed to. So he wants a woman (protector) that is crazily in love with him. His card also says so.