When u go into danger, you reach closer to the divine

pr 8 Eve

Father, I was pleasantly surprised that instead of texting me as per norm, he called me. So, this week alone, he called me 3 times voluntarily. Just when I had given up. I told him in terms of caring, he has no forms, but he does has substance. Father, he is a classic unpolished diamond. So, I was right in my first assessment. Despite his brash demeanor, he is a sensitive person. His personality is ESTJ.

Anyway, today I also did something unprecedented. Calling him back during office hour. At first, tot of not calling him back, but I am appreciative that he is making effort. And since I have spare 20 min I called him back, but no reply. Surprisingly my first tot was that he was in meeting. Then a few hours later after the party, I called him but no response and first response is he is sleeping.
Father, m glad that my first tot is not on auto negative mode. Now first tot becomes neutral. Also, I also breakthru my own personality by calling him twice, basically telling him that I missed him.

Osho
The sun cannot forcibly enter and open the flower. The flower has to be willing, it has to be ready. The flower must give the sun the opportunity to come and open it.

Soul
Tot of me and Z. Guess I wasn't ready yet. And he is a caring man and would not forcibly open.

(May 22 - he reiterated that it is up to me.)

Osho
Life-energy is flowing from all directions but those whose navel centers are not open will be deprived of that flow. They will not even know about it. The flowering of the navel is called a lotus.

The flow of ur breath and mind is absolutely harmonious, it changes the state of ur mind. Either u change the mind and the breath changes or u change the breath and it affects ur mind.
As long as breathing remains harmonious, ur thinking will become less, there almost be no tots.
If the breathing is absolutely even, the tots in the mind totally disappear.

Soul
Surka kriya and breath watching.

Osho
Fearlessness is not the absence of fear. Fearlessness is the total presence of fear - with the courage to face it. But ur lives are such that this does not develop.
When the adventures of life and fearlessness are inviting u, when dangers are calling u, if u go, u will certainly reach closer to the divine.
In danger, in insecurity, the center which is hidden within u, which is sleeping, awakens and become alert. In danger, in insecurity, the center feels a challenge - and in this situation the navel center can develop.
On the physical level, breathing is needed and on the psychological level courage is needed for the development of navel center.
On one hand the personality should be filled with total strength and on the other hand, with total peace; only then an integrated personality, a wholeness can arise.

Soul
That's the reason why I faced my cosmic lesson in Z.
He just text me a smile. I called but he didn't pick up. Most likely he is having a drink and can't talk.
Father, tomorrow when he called, I will make time. I realised something not so right in me. I wanted him to call but when he did I don't sound welcoming. He is making an effort and I am not supportive nor appreciative of it.

Today a colleague said I am confrontational in emails but no frontal face. Guess that the introvert in me. Could be still facing anger issue.