Cosmic Reward (25) - no longer taking things personally

Apr 20

Father, no reply to my text. The old me would be aggravated. But the new me will just accept. I noticed that even if he didn't reply. He does read. To him a no reply is better than a bad reply. Anyway, at first tot of asking him to change but then I recalled the lesson is for me. The purpose of text is to communicate to. How he respond or doesn't is not up to me. And he is not me.

Now reading Osho and noted the Issue - my wound. Don't help it to grow, let it be healed. Yeah, I forgot that I want to change my auto perception of non response means rejection. Looks like my Inner Voice is now louder and gave me alternative before I spiral into pain body.

Mmm, yday, L and M discussed about IE Tamil pgm and surprisingly I am in the discussion. Looks like my role as Promoter is keeping intact.

Osho
A mature person is one who has changed the whole pattern of his being. He is now ready to give. He has taken from the world and now he is ready to give. Growth means u start becoming mature, start dropping ur childhood patterns.

Soul
That's why I undertake my journey and I am facing my Cosmic lesson of abandonment.

Osho
A trees grows - it knows not to what, where; it has no idea of the future, it simply grows. It find growing a joy, so it goes on growing. It goes on putting new leaves, new foliage, new buds and new flowers. It is simply growing with no program. The trees trust and they grow.

If u r trying to follow a pgm, u will never grow, u will only become an imitator. Growth is spontaneous and natural; just be urself and do ur thing and do what is needed at the moment. Respond to here and now and u will be growing.

Soul
I am on the right track. I go with the flow of growth. Meanwhile I don't see the need to improve. I am contented.

Osho
Trees are growing, why should u not be growing.
Growth knows no future, it follows no pattern, it simply happens spontaneously. Improvement is a mind trip, growth is of the whole being.

Nine of Club
U r ready to awaken to a new and higher way of thinking that will be better than u have imagined.

Soul
Despite the non response to text, I was still courageous enough to call him if we r on this week. Then when he said nope due to work load. I was fine. Amazing.
Good thing also, now I have Friday off to do my writing and perhaps dinner with P on Thursday