Cosmic Reward (21) - worst is over

Apr 4

Father, I realised that everytime I made a move, and when there is no response, my first tot is rejection and then abandonment and it spiral thereafter.

Perfect lesson in Z, who placed friend in third priority. And since I want him, I didn't run out of fear. Anyway, I am less affected by my tots.

Osho - Kabir
The mind will give u a thousand and one arguments. It will say, "if u don't plan ahead, u will miss. If u don't prepare now, what are u going to do tomorrow? The tomorrow has to be planned today.".
It is a very clever reasoning - impotent existentially, but very potent rationally.
It will say, "If u don't look back, how are u going to learn from ur past? One has to look back, one has to sort things out. One has to continuously go back to learn, to condense essential lessons so that u can use them in the future. And one has to plan for the future, one has to be ready for the future.

Soul
Me is in the Past. Z is in the future. It is difficult for me to move as I listen to my Past. It is difficult for Z to move because he work only on future. Father, how can we meet, then?

Osho
Don't project the psychological future. Don't go into psychological past. Don't play with the past wound. It will hurt more. Don't look through the past, otherwise u will be misinterpreting the present. You won't be listening to the present as nobody is there.
Because of ur past, because of ur loaded mind, everything goes astray. And because of the past, u cannot listen to the present clues. Seventy percent of communication is non-verbal. But who is there to see that?

Soul
Mmm, something here.

Osho
Love is when sentence need not be completed and it is understood. But it is possible only when u stop this mind's constant rushing into the past and future.

Can't u see the cosmos around u? Everything is take care of. Do u think that the universal spirit will not take care of u? Do u think the universal spirit has abandoned u?

You need to sense, to feel that something goes on carrying for everything in existence. A smallest bud is taken care of, the smallest in existence is taken care of - and man is the greatest flowering. How can God abandon u? Be patient, wait, trust.
This is the meaning of trust;
Sensing the cosmos, sensing the universal spirit mothering everything and everybody, one trust.

Why are u much worried about urself? You need not worry, u can wait. Thing happen when they are needed to happen; things are bound to happen when they are needed to happen. All goes well - just trust.

Soul
Yeap, just be patient. I don't know how things unfold. My interpretation is not right.


Osho
Sense it, feel it, be open to it. Look all around and u will find God's signature everywhere.

Soul
He msg me, saying he is sorry that he missed my call, which is something new.
Actually like me, he is also factual with his words.
And he said he will call me tonite. That one I am not sure, cos he tend not to call eventhough he said he will. But I am open, be like the Fool. Who knows.