Cosmic Reward (10) - to open up and heal my abandonment

Mar 23 Eve

The Power of Now
If you accept that the relationship is here to make u conscious instead of happy, then the relationship will offer u salvation and u will be aligning urself with the higher consciousness that wants to be born into this world

Relinquish ALL judgement as judgement is either to confuse someone's unconscious behaviour with who they are or to project ur own unconsciousness onto another person and mistake that for who they are.
To relinquish judgement does not mean u do not recognise the dysfunctional and unconsciousness when u see it. It means "being the knowing" rather than "being the reaction" and the judge.

Being the knowing creates a clear space of loving presence that allows all things and all people to be as they are. No greater catalyst for transformation exists. If u practice this, ur partner cannot stay with u and remain unconscious.

Soul
I know. The main reason that I proceed ahead its because he is my cosmic lesson. He enable me to practice my pain-body of abandonment.

The Power of Now
Learn to give expression to what u feel without blaming. Learn to listen to ur partner in an open, non-defensive way. Give your partner space for expressing himself.
Be present.

Soul
For now I can only see him acting out his destiny card - a real hard worker, very focused and used his mind to the max. I also can see he project his liking for me as me liking him a lot.
For me I see it as a tool for growth.

The Power of Now
As a general rule, the major obstacle for men tends to be the thinking mind, and the major obstacle for women the pain-body, although in certain individual cases the opposite may be true, and in others the two factors may be equal.


Soul
True for me and him. We r both thinkers. For me, there is pain body. I am not sure for him.

Late evening
No call from him. Ego start to initiate pain-body of abandonment. Of course, I won't allow myself to go there. I call him instead. Call him twice but no reply. Ego again starting. But I won't listen and know he could be asleep or something. Anyway, I started to msg him, "Are we on for tomorrow?". To me, it sound uncertain. So, I changed it to "We go separately". I know Z well enough to know that he will tell me if he cannot make it. I do hope he has recover from his flu.

Osho
The stillness of God is not apart from the dance of our every day, it is at the heart of it. It is not by leaving the world that we come upon the heart of it; but rather by abandoning ourselves to the dance, by living fully and fearlessly at each and every stage of ourselves that we move to the next stage. Or rather, we find ourselves moved as the bud finds itself a flower.

Soul
I know that's why I am going out with Z. And the worst is over.