Cosmic Reward - Seven of Spade in 7 year cycle

Mar 28 Aft

Father, again such drama this morning. The good thing is that I didn't dwell too long with my mind. I am starting to disbelieve it. Thank U for guiding me to see ESTJ, it was really him.

Weekly Osho
1. Issue - Turning in.
She is just watching the antics of the mind - not judging, not trying to stop them, not identified, just watching as if they were traffic on the road, ripples on the surface of a pond. And the antics of the mind are slightly amusing, as it jumps up and down and twists this way and that, trying to get ur attention and seduce u into the game.

To develop the knack of taking a distance from the mind is one of the greatest blessings. It is what meditation is all about, just watching the mind as if the mind belongs to somebody else.
You are ready to take this distance now, and to watch the show without getting caught up in the drama. Indulge urself in the simple freedom of Turning In whenever u can and the knack of meditation will grow and deepen in u.

Soul
Yeap, am definitely starting. At the very least, I can now see the inner drama I created is over nothing.
I am also watching my mind, not hooking to it especially when it turns negative.

2. Internal influence that u r unable to see
Inner Voice
If u have found ur truth within urself there is nothing more in this whole existence to find. Truth is functioning through u. Then u live as truth - alive, radiant, contented, blissful, a song unto urself. Your whole life becomes a prayer without words, a grace, a beauty which does not belong to our mundane world, a ray of light coming from the beyond into the darkness of our world.

There are times in our lives when too many voices seem to be pulling us this way and that. Our very confusion in such situations is a reminder to seek silence and centering within. Only then are we able to hear our truth.

Soul
Father, thanks. I was feeling confused this morning but I was determined not to be hooked by ego. Or rather it started yday night. I guess instead of saying Z is challenging, perhaps I could say that my faith is not strong. Otherwise Z wouldn't be a challenge.

(May 17 - I shared with Z about him being a challenge. He replied he is not creating challenges for me. It is me who thinks he is challenging.)

3. External influence
Intensity
You have to be an original individual. U have to find ur innermost core of ur won, with no guide, no guiding scriptures. It is a dark night, but with the intense fire of inquiry, you are bound to come to the sunrise.
The intensity represented by the Knight of Fire belongs to the vertical world of the present moment - a recognition that now is the only moment there is, and here is the only space.


Soul
Yday I saw the 7 years cycle in the sixth period. I saw me in a relationship with a younger man of Spade. I accepted this path.
I also read his in fifth period and he has Queen of Diamond as Displacement, both for spending above budget and for meeting someone with Queen of Diamond card.
I know I definitely displaced him. While he said I am not in his mind, but he confess I drive him mad in my ding dong.
I am staying in the Now. Not looking at Future and not remembering the past.

(May 17 - mmmm, if he doesn't want me, he wouldn't be affected by my ding dong. I guess what he was saying was that I keep on giving him hope and then pull back again...)

4. What is needed for resolution
Trust
Trust life! If u trust, only then u drop ur knowledge, only then can u put ur mind aside. And with trust, something immense opens up. Then this life is no longer ordinary, it becomes full of God, overflowing.
When the heart is innocent and the walls have disappeared, u r bridged with infinity.
And u r not deceived; there is nothing that can be taken away from u. That which can be taken away from u is not worth keeping and that which cannot be taken away from u....why should one be afraid then. U cannot lose ur real treasure.

Now is the moment to be a bungee jumper without the cord! And it is this quality of absolute trust, with no reservations or secret safety nets, that the Knight of Water demands from us.
We just jump with hardly a tot for what happens next. The leap is the thing, and the thrill of it as we free-fall through the empty sky.

Soul
Not sure of this. I tot I already jumped. Only thing is I am not sure how to proceed further.

5. Resolution
Beyond Illusion
The space between the two eyes has opened, revealing the lotus of spiritual unfoldment and the rising sun of awareness.
Through the rising of the inner sun, meditation is born.
This card reminds us not to look outside for what is real, but to look within. When we focus on externals, we too often get caught up in judgements - this is good, this is bad. I want this, I don't want that. These judgements keep us trapped in our illusions, our old habits and patterns.
Relax into ur own deepest truth.